My lover was standing there watching me flirt and get off with the guy. It made me feel good at the time but I hate myself afterwards for behaving like this.
I’m 31 and divorced with two kids. I married the love of my life but he cheated on me constantly and made my life miserable. We split up two years ago but he still sees the kids. Continue>>>
The guy I’m with now is just one in a long line of casual affairs. He’s seven years younger than me, tall and good-looking, with a sweet little baby and stay-at-home wife. I think he gets bored with his sex life at home.
When we went to this night club we chatted a while, then I noticed this good-looking guy at the bar and moved in for the kill. Why do I do it? It’s not as if the sex was great when I got the guy back home anyway.
That’s how I behave all the time. I haven’t had a proper relationship since my marriage went bust.
I tend to go for men who already have a partner and I really get off on the fact that they choose to be with me instead of their girlfriend or wife back at home.
I make them fall in love with me. I keep myself fit and in shape so it isn’t too hard. As soon as they’re hooked I back off, and it gives me a kick to confuse them and mess them around. I treat them so badly they finally give up and leave.
The youngest guy I’ve been out with was only 18. I didn’t really feel comfortable with the age gap but it didn’t stop me.
The way I behave now is not how I’d like to be treated at all. I did get abused as a five-year-old child by a friend of my dad’s. Is that why I’m acting this way?