Saturday, 9 February 2013
Cherished CCB Readers: I'm bedding best buddy behind boyfriend's back
I’m 24. My boyfriend and I met on a blind date which friends arranged 18 months ago.
He is 32 and I enjoy being with him. We have lots in common and a similar sense of humour but we don’t have a sex life because I didn’t feel ready. I have known my best friend since university. He had a controlling girlfriend then and we gradually lost touch.
We recently bumped into one another at a mutual friends’ wedding and I realised how attractive I found him. He had split from his girlfriend so we agreed to meet up.
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We started spending more time together and one night we could contain ourselves no longer and had sex in my bed before my boyfriend was due to arrive home – he works away a lot.
The sex was brilliant and we started to meet regularly. I am usually with him when my boyfriend rings so I have to make excuses instead of just chatting.
Sometimes I say I don’t feel well, sometimes I say I have to phone my mum, sometimes I say there is too much interference on the line.
It all got too much so my best friend and I decided to go public. I ended it with my boyfriend but he refused to accept it. We talked it through and agreed to try to fix our problems.
My best friend said he would give me space but I couldn’t stop thinking about him. We have fallen back into the same situation with me leading a double life.
I feel guilty for cheating but I am in love with my best friend. I don’t want to hurt either of them - nor end up losing them both.